My Adult Thoughts

Jenna is tired of dating men who only think of one thing - how to get her in bed. She wants a prince charming. He does not have to arrive on a white horse. But at least one who can have a proper conversation with her. She wants a man who wants her, not for her body, but for her heart. No, that is a lie. She does not mind a man who wants her for her body, but the man must want her more than just that. Jenna wants a man who makes her happy. She wants love.

It is like a nightmare, to be dragged through dates after dates and not being able to find a man who likes her for who she is. Those men she had dated wanted her for only sex. She does not see any future prospect with men like those. She wants a man who understands her. She wants a man who needs her. Not physically only, but at the emotional level too.

She wants a man who knows how to touch her in the right way. One who knows how to make her laugh and wants to make her laugh. Jenna longs for a man with a good heart. She needs a strong man, but with a gentle, soft heart. It matters to Jenna if there is any spark when they hold hands. Or when they look at each other. Or when they touch.

The man Jenna wants must be someone who protects her from the harshness of the world. When he grabs her into his arms, she would feel safe. There is a certain strength in his hold, but yet soft to her touch. He must be one who knows when to play rough, and when to act gentle and soft.

Jenna sighs. It is almost like she is asking a great deal from life. Such man does not exist, Jenna thinks to herself. If he does exist, he must be from somewhere out of this world. Or he must be married. Or gay. There is no good man left out there for her. She can just cry believing this.