My Adult Thoughts

My dream of being married and having kids by the age of 35 has been shattered into a million tiny pieces. I was dating a guy I met on an internet dating site, we dated over 7 months and things were progressing really nicely and I had begun to think that finally my night in shinning armor had arrived. We did everything together and had even begun discussing moving in together, well he wanted to move in but I told him I would not feel comfortable living together until we were married. So we agreed to put that conversation of for a later time and kept on with our relationship and I thought everything was perfect.

Little did I know that right after we had that conversation he went back to the internet dating site we had met on and he activated his account again. This was 2 months before we broke up so he spent 2 months lying to me and dating women that he was meeting on the internet dating site. He was telling me that he was working extra hours and even some weekends and all along he was going on dates with these women and lying about it.

It finally all blew up in my face when my sister bought me a stunning dress and invited me to dinner at a reallyposhrestaurant, this was on a night that he was working, so I went off to dinner and guess who was there? Yes he was there with a very sexy twenty something, sitting at the bar and drinking with her. At first I thought I must be mistaken that it was not him but when he turned around to cuddle her he looked right over at me and then I could deny it no longer. We got in a huge fight right there and then and that's when the almost teenager told me that she had met him on the internet dating site and that it was their 4th date. I was upset very hurt and pist off like hell.

After that night I never saw him again and since then I have sat home at night feeling sorry for myself. He's probably out tonight with anothertwentyyear old and having a blast. I know it's not healthy to sit here alone and that I should get back out there but its going to take me some time to recover. Maybe in a few weeks I can do the whole internet dating again but not yet.